a start to a goodbye

the hardest things for me to leave are my four dogs.

 they know nothing of this world so they probably will not understand why mommy simply never came home one day. or why mommys stuff are being placed in a box somewhere. 

 please, when i'm gone, follow a few simple steps regarding my four babies. 

 step 1: let them come to me. let them see me, let them say goodbye. i will be there even in spirit to give them one final kiss, one final pat on the head and a long resounding hug. a hug that will last for all their lives. i will be there to let them know i love them. even in spirit.

 step 2: dont give them away. dont separate them from each other. even if they fight and are very hostile, i can see they love each other and that they really feel that they are siblings. I dont want them to be apart from each other. 

 step 3: whoever takes care of them, please give them treats. they like popcorn and fries. feed them as if they were chickens. casually just spray the popcorn or fries on the floor. theyll flock to it like moths to a flame. they also like it when you share them food from your plate. they dont steal food from you. they simply wait for you to give them some. they are really the best dogs.

 step 4: let them know that i will be waiting for them. wherever i am. i hope they live forever, even if i am no longer there. please reassure them that i will be waiting for them and i am ready to greet them, ill be there. 

 they truly are the best there is. they know when youre sad and they will comfort you. they will stay by your side then wait for you to feel better. i guess they love in a very big way. 

 it makes me the saddest to leave you, doggies.

 B♥L♥M♥V


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